how do you KNOW?

I find myself going through a personal crises

. It may not be big to some, and, in the grand scheme of the universe, It is not big, But to me, on a personal level, its rather immense.

On this path I have chosen to take, One of the difficulties I have is ,:How do you know? In the sense of, how do you know when your personal Deity/s or Forces in your life are trying to tell you something? How do you know what is a lesson, and what is just unintended universal function?

As this path I am on is internal, and not with say, a group, what is a message? Most of my life, I have felt held back, that if I try, if I strive, I fail, I get hurt. Both physical, and spiritually. One of My Valued Teachers suggests that maybe I am being affected by something, A Jinx of sorts, Not from anyone in particular, but A General sort of continual bad luck. Another valued friend suggests that Perhaps, as a reincarnation point of view, perhaps before I started this life, I chose this path as a lesson.

As a received message, some Mainstream religious followers have said to me that God speaks volumes, that I just need to listen, and became mature and close to God , like them. That the wind speaks, that just being alive is a message that I should take to heart. That a Prayer is answered you will just KNOW, and that I prayed. And didn't hear an answer means that I do not have the proper sort of Faith. But as well, those self same followers commonly say "God Gives us what he knows we need, not what we Want!" So, if God feels that we need to get stronger by taking away a loved one in death, is that a good thing? Gods will is mysterious, and we may not know it, we must just accept on Faith?

The purpose of this ramble is that,while I believe that I will eventually walk from this dark place into a place of light, but when? How do I know, what can I observe that can show me?

In the end, it is I who must answer these things in myself. I must reconcile these things in me, for me.

As before, so again, I will endure. I will learn contentment

On your own path, what do you consider a Sign? A Message? How do you Know?

Healing

November 5 20011

Hey Hey everybody. I wanted to thank you all for your patients. I spent a week in September in the hospital, on my back for a nasty infection that, if it had not been fought with meds and wonderful Nurses and Doctors, I might have had body parts amputated.

But, after a Month of October convalescence, I am back, and on the mend. And here to discuss Healing.

How does healing work in your world? I have found that some don't think about it. It "just is" Others thinking greatly about it! I once had a classmate who was going through Chemotherapy, and she said that she had a visualization that the Chemo Drug entering her body were "White Knights" and that the Cancer was a "Ravening Horde"

She would focus upon that, and imagine a great war, and that the knights were winning.

Some use mediation, opening up Chi, and blood flow to aid in healing. Others use Yoga, clearing the Charka's even the use of Acupuncture. From a Wiccan perspective, would healing be a Coven thing? A Closed Rite where you use shared energy to encourage healing, using the earth and Goddess's help? If you a Solitary practitioner, then your own healing might be to balance whats in you so its better focused to healing , and asking for help from the Goddess/God you follow.

From my view as a someone who kitchen Witches, then good food, well cooked, and prepared with the intention of healing, with a cup of restorative herbal infusions would aid in Regaining Health.

As well, my own personal Meditation involves the visualization of rebuilding a broken protective wall. Seeing a pile of broken bricks and crumbled mortar. Picking up each brick, and dusting it off, and cleaning it of broken mortar. Making sure the base of the wall is prepared, and supported before butter each brick with new, well mixed mortar, before seating each course of bricks with solid protective intention. I was not attacked per say, but something was broken, and needs to be repaired.

What do you do to heal? Could you share it, that we might learn?

Next up, My Vision quest report!

Getting back on my feet

Its been a long past few monthes, getting back on my feet and allowing myself to heal properly. Please be patient with me, as i will get back to this Blog soon! I have several posts floatting around in my head, some about healing, and what Pain can do, As well, I have an intimate report of my first vision quest, I hope you will all read avidly! thanks!