Mission Statement

Reading Bruce Lee's "Jeet kune Do" I realized that perhaps how I deal with teh world might need an explanation, So I wrote my own Down

The Way of the Mountain

The Mountain does not Move. It is solid.

Cracks and Crevasses may appear, but does not change the Heart of the Mountain

The Mountain Endures. Landslides, Fire, Water, Windstorms

The Mountain Endures.

Wind Swirls around.

Water washes off

Fire has no fuel

Rocks fall away

Yet, The Mountain Stays

As People, as living, breathing, thinking, feeling People,

We cannot Be a Mountain. But, in our souls, we can be LIKE a Mountain.

We can let the Rumors, like the Wind, brush our shoulders,

swirl around us, but not blow us from our paths.

We can let Sadness wash down our faces, like Water,

acknowledge it, but let it wash down and away.

We can let Anger scorch our skin, But, like Fire on Stone, it finds no fuel,

so burns out, Leaving the Mountain standing still.

We can let Life fall away from us, chunks of Rock we thought we needed,

But, in the end, stripped down or not, the Mountain persists.

We cannot all be Mountains. It is a Path, a Way of Being, that is not for everyone. Nor should it be for everyone! We need The Great Plains, the Mighty Rivers, to make it a Whole World. Be what your nature asks of you. Be strong and true on your own path. 

I am A Mountain 

What the Mountain sees

This poem kept circling in my mind all night, while I couldn't sleep. So I wrote it down. Now, I am sharing it here. There is something in it, rather wistful. Take it for what you will.

What the Mountain Sees

The swaying of the trees, a great ocean of needles
The swallow swooping and diving
The clouds scuttling
All the world spread out, and moving by,
a slow tide
Most of all, the Wind.
Constant companion, always sweeping clean
always bracing, always showing that time moves.
Even if the Mountain does not,
the Mountain can see

Wonder

As many before me, I have been pondering the word wonder.
   Why? Well, because, there are many things that I wonder about and cause wonder in me. Curious, I asked if I am using the word correctly, and lets go to several on-line dictionaries, shall we?

According to Dictionary.com

won·der

   [wuhn-der] 

verb (used without object)

1.to think or speculate curiously

2.to be filled with admiration, amazement, or awe; marvel 

3.to doubt:

4.to speculate curiously or be curious about; be curious to know: 

5.to feel wonder at

  

I Like #2, and #3. They both describe what I feel, sometimes. I also notice that none of these say that wonder is good!

   Many people I hear speak, seem to think that wonder is a positive word! I can be that, I think, but most of the time, its more descriptive. To see a tornado, or a thunderstorm would be wonders to me, but at the same time terrifying. To witness birth, while a wonder for sure, is also a struggle. 

   On your path, what do you define as a wonder? What causes wonder in you? do you cause wonder in other? 

Dreams and interpitations

January 22 2012

I dream sometimes. I wonder what we can learn from dreams? Can you instruct another, or is it all subjective, and only you, yourself are able to judge? Please, let me share a recent dream with you all.

A sapphire ceiling, and an onyx floor. Alabaster and red stone columns connecting above and below. A court of law seems to be in session, and I am the defendant. It appears that I have just lost, and the sentence is being pronounced. I am to be put to death by everyone there. The audience is my family, my loved ones, and my friends. Each person gets to come up to me,  say some supportive words, and then kill me in the way they deem fitting. Every time I am killed, I return to life for the next person. I feel each death hard. In my dream I agree with the sentence, that I deserve this. I am disappointed and angry at myself for having necessitated this action.

The dream continues until all have killed me. This may seem like a nightmare to some, but to me it was just a dream. Admittedly a dark one, and weird, but still a dream. I am not asking for your interpretation, Just to see that I can think my way through these things. To me, this dream is about not death, but change, needed change.

Do you interpret your own dreams, or do you consult with another, or, do you meditate? Or what do you do?

how do you KNOW?

I find myself going through a personal crises

. It may not be big to some, and, in the grand scheme of the universe, It is not big, But to me, on a personal level, its rather immense.

On this path I have chosen to take, One of the difficulties I have is ,:How do you know? In the sense of, how do you know when your personal Deity/s or Forces in your life are trying to tell you something? How do you know what is a lesson, and what is just unintended universal function?

As this path I am on is internal, and not with say, a group, what is a message? Most of my life, I have felt held back, that if I try, if I strive, I fail, I get hurt. Both physical, and spiritually. One of My Valued Teachers suggests that maybe I am being affected by something, A Jinx of sorts, Not from anyone in particular, but A General sort of continual bad luck. Another valued friend suggests that Perhaps, as a reincarnation point of view, perhaps before I started this life, I chose this path as a lesson.

As a received message, some Mainstream religious followers have said to me that God speaks volumes, that I just need to listen, and became mature and close to God , like them. That the wind speaks, that just being alive is a message that I should take to heart. That a Prayer is answered you will just KNOW, and that I prayed. And didn't hear an answer means that I do not have the proper sort of Faith. But as well, those self same followers commonly say "God Gives us what he knows we need, not what we Want!" So, if God feels that we need to get stronger by taking away a loved one in death, is that a good thing? Gods will is mysterious, and we may not know it, we must just accept on Faith?

The purpose of this ramble is that,while I believe that I will eventually walk from this dark place into a place of light, but when? How do I know, what can I observe that can show me?

In the end, it is I who must answer these things in myself. I must reconcile these things in me, for me.

As before, so again, I will endure. I will learn contentment

On your own path, what do you consider a Sign? A Message? How do you Know?

Healing

November 5 20011

Hey Hey everybody. I wanted to thank you all for your patients. I spent a week in September in the hospital, on my back for a nasty infection that, if it had not been fought with meds and wonderful Nurses and Doctors, I might have had body parts amputated.

But, after a Month of October convalescence, I am back, and on the mend. And here to discuss Healing.

How does healing work in your world? I have found that some don't think about it. It "just is" Others thinking greatly about it! I once had a classmate who was going through Chemotherapy, and she said that she had a visualization that the Chemo Drug entering her body were "White Knights" and that the Cancer was a "Ravening Horde"

She would focus upon that, and imagine a great war, and that the knights were winning.

Some use mediation, opening up Chi, and blood flow to aid in healing. Others use Yoga, clearing the Charka's even the use of Acupuncture. From a Wiccan perspective, would healing be a Coven thing? A Closed Rite where you use shared energy to encourage healing, using the earth and Goddess's help? If you a Solitary practitioner, then your own healing might be to balance whats in you so its better focused to healing , and asking for help from the Goddess/God you follow.

From my view as a someone who kitchen Witches, then good food, well cooked, and prepared with the intention of healing, with a cup of restorative herbal infusions would aid in Regaining Health.

As well, my own personal Meditation involves the visualization of rebuilding a broken protective wall. Seeing a pile of broken bricks and crumbled mortar. Picking up each brick, and dusting it off, and cleaning it of broken mortar. Making sure the base of the wall is prepared, and supported before butter each brick with new, well mixed mortar, before seating each course of bricks with solid protective intention. I was not attacked per say, but something was broken, and needs to be repaired.

What do you do to heal? Could you share it, that we might learn?

Next up, My Vision quest report!

Getting back on my feet

Its been a long past few monthes, getting back on my feet and allowing myself to heal properly. Please be patient with me, as i will get back to this Blog soon! I have several posts floatting around in my head, some about healing, and what Pain can do, As well, I have an intimate report of my first vision quest, I hope you will all read avidly! thanks!